Incomplete soul

2009-09-18T02:32:00.003+08:00

16/09/09

ZeeAvi's Concert @ st.James Powerhouse

few days ago. she gave me a text whether i'm free on Wednesday.

Obviously i said yes.

i mean come on man. it's been like what? 2months since we contacted each other.

So here's the plan. meet up with her under my block.

i got mistaken of meeting her at the mrt station .

so we chilled under the block.

catch up lots of stuffs.

bro came, and sang a phrase from ZeeAvi's song, Bitterheart.

and she went *uhheehee :) *

all shy and stuff.

her aunt fetched us.

had dinner at a Thai restaurant somewhere in Clarke quay.

photos, chats, laughs and ahhem. Certain silence.

Left the place, went to the gents.

chatted abit to kill time.

waited for her and her aunt.

felt the presence of awkwardness.

sat in the car. waited.

dead silence.

wonders in my head.

sped to st.James.

i will never forget the experience in the car, i swear.

it was the most thrilling ride i ever had.

i know she was scared and we were almost flying from one end to the other of the backseat.

*hold tight!*

haaa~ i miss those...

anyway, reached powerhouse.

waited for her aunt's cliques.

i introduce myself to one of her aunt's friend.

so waiting around round round.

1st time in the powerhouse was a hell-of-an experience.

theres lights and full house songs. i don't really know why they call them that way.

i thought the place was big. but it could fit probably a quarter of a soccer field.

chilled.

ordered drinks.

chill ah. it's not alco-drinks.

like are you crazy?

so we had some cola.

chatter with her.

all the "jakun" part comes in.

minutes later, ZeeAvi came.

played her songs.

i gotta tell ya, to those who didn't catch the performance, is such a waste.

good job Zee!

she is super talented i tell ya!

oh well..

after the performance there are autographs sessions, meet-up sessions.

you went away w/o me knowing.

aww~ come on.

poor thing that she felt kinda dizzy.

so she decided to take a sit at our corner.

the Universal manager called us to meet ZeeAvi.

haha i was like "WOAH!" on the inside.

but i said, "hey zee! my name's Zaki....."

she was so happy to meet Zee.

Zee was shocked to see her cousin dressed nicely for the night.

since there were people waiting for us to go, we decided to leave and hopefully to meet her later after everything ends.

*to be continued*

2009-09-04T02:19:00.002+08:00

Hello guys.

it's me.

yeah i'm back, eventually.

don't think that something happy happened to me that made me resurrected the blog.

it's just random thought.

though......

put all worries/confusions aside, let's put it this way, i never felt this way.

the feeling of being able to do your own stuffs w/o any disturbance.

but i won't put it as you are a disturbance.

you are not.

you were never a disturbance.

yet you put me in a different position, a better one.

*hmph* i can't believe time have passed so fast.

you know yourself that i am talking about you.

if you're reading this... hmm just to tell ya that i hope you're happy with what you're going through now.

i know you've been waiting to be on your own huh?

you've been giving me pranks and stuffs.

why huh?

is that really the way to find out my true feelings for you.

i mean.. Can't you see? for the past times i've been giving it all for you.

insisting on slacking at your place was the in-thing.

helping with your work.

watching you stress all about your work was really cute of you.

in fact, you were enjoying it huh?

sorry, i guess that was a bad joke.

having dinner with your family.

play with your siblings, cousins was an experience never to forget.

not to mention you too.

oh well fate/takdir is inevitable.

nan don punirago~

oh oh only for you.

2009-06-27T00:00:00.001+08:00

26th June, 2009

proud to say i got straight A's for this semester's results and a Very Good conduct for my lifeskills.

am very grateful and glad that i have worked hard for this moment.

2009-06-20T00:51:00.003+08:00

June 19th 2009

(staring into your eyes)

it's a nightmare+joke today.

met her at bugis.

had 2nd lunch at tong seng coffehouse..i think that's the name.

had laksa.

she had nothing, just ice lemon tee.

got some stuffs out of each others' thoughts.

talked about LAW and Apologies.

left the place.

walked aimlessly.

talked about stuffs.

important stuffs.

i knew something was going to happen.

sat at some place where there aren't much people.

straight forward comes in the story.

broke down.

can't believe it.

hard to believe.

but it just happened anyway.

and end of the story, i got punked.

yepp.. that's what happened to me.

now traumatised and shocked.

insomnia gushed through my veins.

endless thoughts came into my mind.

i knew it was a relief. but i still can't get over it

--<3>

2009-06-11T19:48:00.003+08:00

entry for June 11th, 2009

today was a extremely homey day. woke up late.

got nothing to do. play psp, just too boring.

play ps3? well, don't feel like it.

not much people to text.

it feels like crap basically.

how i wish things would be like how it used to be

i give everything just to see you smile:)

2009-05-30T01:58:00.007+08:00

entry for 29-05-09

what a big night! phew! it felt like an exercise!

i got tricked by you. but it ended up pretty good <3 she text me whether i'm free, but sadly, i was napping. "what the hell!" yeah i know. don't mention. woke up at around 6+. replied her but it was too late. *awww. missed it*

anyway, at about dinner time she told me that something happened to her. so i went down to see her. and i thought she was hurt or sumtin. sekali no lah! and the thing is, i brought some medication and tissue because the way she told me sounded like it's serious!

we sat on a nearby bench. she gave me birthday presents. there was a couple of tees and cakes. i was thrilled and i gotta tell ya, my heart was racing! it felt like the sound of a horse galloping. sheesh! and i got tired from smiling cheek to cheek.

i was ecstatic. this feels like a fantasy, so good that you're just feel like you're in a different world.. a world made up of happiness and excitement.

i wanted to send her home because the time she spent for me is totally priceless. and all the things she did for me. i can't take it lightly. i mean come on. you gotta appreciate what your loved ones do for you right. this is like common sense right?

i love her. and she's all that i have. i won't let anything disrupt our relationship. nothing.

we head home. her cousins were there. had fun with 'em. watched monster inc. in disney channel.

after movie finished, sent her cousins home. instead of sending them, we went in. haha! the kid was super duper uber hyper maan. jeez! no wonder why she's slim :)

after the whole night "exercising", i went home.

that's all i can put ok. no more.

haha sorry readers.

anything after that is between me and her.

words of the day:

you know, sometimes in life you can't be all good like an angel. you have to be equal and balanced.

you can't be all too good or vice versa.

people won't like you that way.

2009-05-29T19:52:00.002+08:00

alright guys. in a few hours my 18th year will be forever gone!

my 19th will be a new adventure for me :)

we'll see what's in store up for my 19th birthday.

2009-05-11T19:11:00.002+08:00

It's Monday, May 11th, 2009
7:10pm

i got home like a normal nerdy boy would do.

when the bell tells us that it's time to go, then it's time to go.

i'm just a normal average guy who has different capabilities.

i enjoyed singing as much as people do.

i still can't find my true voice yet, you know.

it felt like you're trying to be someone you're not.

although i adore rain's vocal strength but when it comes to singing his songs, i tend to sound LIKE him.

and to be a professional singer/artist, you gotta find you comfortable spot which you can relax and just let the tone of your voice flow along your vocal chords/box.

and i tend to "force" my voice?? which i don't get it.

There was once that she told me that i tend to sing from my nose, not from my diaphragm.

i know how it feels like singing from my diaphragm, but when it comes to high, difficult notes, i tend to force it out from my throat (which i am not supposed to..) , rather than using my diaphragm to control it.

TIP: you gotta relax your muscles on your throat and also use the correct breathing techniques in order to get a good result.

*It takes a whole lot of practice!

i enjoyed playing the guitar although i am still getting used to switching in different chords and stuffs.

(ugh..my neck aches)

gotta get used to it.

SO! back to reality, i've been mugging these days.

i don't intend on continuing my studies to higher nitec because:-

1. It grabs a whole lot of your lifetime

2. You gotta stick with the same old rules: uniform.

3. You gotta make new friends.

4. You gotta start all over again. But deeper in a sense that your challenges are way tougher.

5. You have to go around the bush for 2 YEARS in order to get to polytechnic.

+ i can't afford to lose this opportunity.
+ i need to get to poly after ite.

Adios!

*Still Loving you as always*

2009-05-09T23:06:00.003+08:00

꺽여버린꽃처럼아플때도

쓰러진나무처럼초라해도

심장의소릴느껴봐

난너를사랑해

2009-05-07T23:16:00.004+08:00

07-05-09

hey. it has been a very long time since i blogged.

too good to be true, really.

okay. about today:

since days i've been getting this "sickness" or something which i do not know how to describe it.

i felt shag. probably too shag.

i don't know probably it might the average bread intake i had per day: 8

i know i need to gain alot of mass for my gym workouts.

but it seemed that i don't workout after consuming at quantity.

tired of myself. tired of exercising. tired of sleeping too early.

end of story..

2009-04-02T23:30:00.005+08:00

setiap kekasaran wanita ada kelembutannya di dalam hati.

02-03-09

went to the MARINA barrrrrage with her.

reached her place at 12.

waited..

listen, when i was otw to her place, i kept on thinking bout this Bohemian look about her.

apparently out of the blue, she walked down the stairs with the EXACT look thats on my mind.

gosh i was stunned for a moment.

got back to my senses and i told her about whats on my mind just now.

so we saunter to mrt.

head to marina bay.

and guess what marina bay is EMPTY. serious.

then we saw caucasians and she went "so cute!"

i was like zzzzz

soo we managed to get out from the station and find the busstop that we're supposed to wait for the shuttle bus.

and apparently the two caucasians were heading to MB too!

bus came.

board the bus.

and SUDDENLY we chat about our olden days in Aleem Siddique.

apparently we board the same bus.

jeez how come we didnt see each other.

so reached MB.

the place looks quiet.

well its to obvious that its a weekday right?

so we head to the water-playground area.

suddenly she erupted.

don't ask me.

i have no idea!

oh well after awhile, got back to our senses and we started playing water.

hmm i think i started "swish" some water at her.

or isit the other way round??

so i bet she knew shes gonna be all wet!

she started using her "special" weapon, her camera, as her "protector"

cos its sumhow not her's.

so somebody would kill her IF the camera's busted.

so i would take every chance to splash her some water..

and she goes "JANGAN!! ni bukan camera i lah!~ nanti rosak macam mana? i tau lah to you its nothing.............."

haha! poor thing la she :P

played UNTIL i ended up got "interrogated" by the "police"

like this.. all soaked! well not literally

then i became the model of the day for Dentyne chewing gum, Thailand

then right after this shot, Tsunami Feefa came!

saw some primary school kids running around.

gosh it really reminded us of our pri.sch times.

life stories told.

laughed it out.

cherished every moment.

just spending time with her made my heart go crazy over her.

jeez :P

"didn't i mentioned you looked gorgeous every time we go out?"

2009-04-02T00:15:00.002+08:00

just got fooled...

and hey guess what??

yesterday was april fool's day.

like what THE hell!

i tell you i got THE worst fool ever.

by her sia..

oh my gosh!

jeez maan..

could IT get any worst?

2009-03-31T19:55:00.001+08:00

am i going to face the worse day of my life?

or the other way round?

we'll see what happens

2009-03-29T19:06:00.002+08:00

maybe i am being too much?

maybe i am too responsive?

maybe i am thinking too much?

am i?

2009-03-29T18:26:00.005+08:00

felt so cold.

felt so numb.

felt so uneasy.

am i not protective?

am i being irresponsible of what i am?

am i being unreliable?

What is this silence telling me?

is it telling me to stay away from your life?

please tell me.

i am going insane.

i admit that everything is my fault.

i just want US to be just like the times when we will go crazy for each other.

2009-03-21T02:38:00.004+08:00

20th of March is a very special day for

someone!

Someone who is very special to me.

Someone whom i care about in my life.

Someone whom i cherish most.

and Someone whom i Love with all my heart.

Love can never be interpreted in words.

no matter how many times you try to convince your partner, partly, it doesnt work.

Its all in a matter of Appreciation, the little things you do for your partner and ofcourse being loyal.

Today i spent my day rushing here and there.

preparing stuffs.

but as the sun sets, and dusk is just at the corner, the night became a reality.

*Whatever you do, just don't give up*

i picked her up.

she looked totally gorgeous in this black toga-dress...is that how its spelled?

i was stunned!

soo we took a cab to Fish&Co.

stepped on some mud.

managed to wipe it off while otw.

she kept on asking, where are we going?

i just giggled as i duwana tell her coz i wana make a surprise.

soo reached at Fish&Co.

queue was pretty long.

managed to "cut-queue".

seated.

Did really stupid stuffs.

but im not gonna write it down.

coz its really dumb+stupid.

soo cut the crap.

ordered.

chat about stuffs.

something happened which i duwana put it here. confidential.

and~ while almost finishing the food, me and zac managed to play a special birthday gift song.

it's called Kekasih Gelapku by Ungu (Purple in English)

well, i managed to put a smile on her face =D

sweeet lah her smile.

it gives me this warm feeling in my heart...

soo we left the place.

one thing i missed..

her bday cake!

i left it at Fish&Co.

so went back and took it.

soo we head home by mrt.

chat.

laughters.

closure.

deep feelings.

deep thoughts.

smiles.

eyes.

We saunter by the park.

just cherishing every single moment.

haha i thought of sending her to her door then leave.

instead i went IN!

but its a good thing anyway. can chill there...

opened up her bday cake.

and~ "Happy Birthday to you........"

her bro is Active!

* has to describe with the capital "A" *

so took pictures and vids.

ate a slice of cake.

and its CREAM-TIME!

*swipe*

washed after that.

then chao!

the bus is still available but...

I want to take a cab coz i just wana spend time with her.

chat chat chat till we dont realise about the time.

in the end, managed to stop the conversation.

haha!

until her mom called!! jeez~

i love you

i love you

i hope i made your day <3

i love you

i love you

2009-03-18T20:27:00.003+08:00

life is hard i must say.

i have to do whatever it takes to avoid breaking down in pieces.

well right now i have this urge of shouting out loud until theres no voice.

but the feeling sucks i tell you.

you never know, my anger might rise like a volcano is about to erupt.

2009-03-18T00:26:00.003+08:00

18-March-09

went to study with her @ esplanade.

and i reached 5mins earlier than her! phew~ what an improvement.

she studied hadith..or is that how it is being spelled?

i studied DMT.

managed to get chap. 19&20 in my head.

stopped around dusk.

chatted.

laughed.

giggled.

simpathy.

smiled.

bluek-ed!

then we head to raffles city to get some J.Co's

sat at a park.

i had my bread,

then the donuts,

then fried noodles.

*this is the SurprisinG part*

while i was ENJOYING my fooodah!

suddenly it "started" to rain.

got 65% wet..

i think YOU'RE 80% wet ah~

hehe!

wait till i have my sweeeet revenge.

THEN AH~

another "trick" came down her sleeve.

we were talking about Gilera motorcycles.

she told me that it's an automatic bike. which means that u dont have to gear-up or down.

then i fell for her "trick" sia.

she told me that there is a button to reverse the bike.

and i went "ohh issit?! waah~"

she said "motor mana ada reverse gear!"

then she laughed and laughed all she could.

until theres no voice coming out from her..

imagine that a person like me could be soo dumb until it seemed totally funny that actually fell for it!

hahahahaha! OMG!

i was like damn sia!

i cant be THAT dumb right?! sheesh~

haiyo X)

so she laughed it all out until she cant anymore.

the weird thing is that i laughed about it too, i mean about my dumb-ness.

blablablaa~

took bus home..

slept.

woke up by "rain" again

how i wish my "wakup call" could be that REFRESHing..

was alil "heavy-sleepy" at that time.

sent her home.

******

then another TRICK came from her.

which made me panicked!

walaubaigaimanapun,
aku akan tetap mencintaimu
lebih dari apa pun

2009-03-14T15:49:00.008+08:00

14 March 2009

went to meet her at bedok inter at 8:30AM!!

haha i know its really early but its worth waking up just to see her.

coz its been awhile since we went out.

& it felt like it's a MUST to see her.

so i put my alarm at 6:47am, but realised it an hour later.

so jumped up, and get ready within 25mins.

had plain water for breakfast.

brought bread for 2nd meal.

blablablaa

reached inter minutes later.

waited for her at the telephone booth.

after awhile she came, and i gave her a smileeee :D

sooo she brought this mini-guitar case lookalike.

apparently, it's a violin case. haha!

looks cool and it matched her clothes :P

Went to POSB to get important stuffs done.

then head to banquet and bought nasi ayam for her sis.

and apparently, her sis knows how to play the violin.

so we took 17.

waited quite long for the bus.

silly things happened. haha!!

"the wind is quite strong."

*piak!*

blur all of a sudden..

misunderstood about something :P

so the craziness managed to kill the time waiting.

so bus came. and shait i didnt know that her sis is studying at sacps

(must be pretty good)

blablablaa~

waited in the canteen.

hair do's.

handphones.

story-tellings.

expressions.

had breakfast.

fun until 1+

otw to eastpt. to get some stuffs.

oh yeah guess what. i was walking with her and this thing kept on buggin me.

Question: What do you call the person playing a violin?

Violinist right?
pronounced as "vai-ler-nees-st" right?

i ask her. she also have no idea.

violist? violinist?

so i asked her sis. and it seems that shes too shy to answer that. heehee

minutes after, we head to century sq to buy OCK for her bro.

then head home!

*one sweet thing happened.
*i was shocked&surprised

*you're my sunshine

2009-03-10T20:08:00.002+08:00

cried alone on my bed.
wishing you would call me.
wishing you would tell me that we're okay.

i dont wana fight over small stuffs anymore.
let's dont fight anymore.
come on~

:'(

2009-03-10T20:05:00.001+08:00

i miss you dear.
i miss you telling me that you love me, then goes with a kiss on my left cheek.

please....

2009-02-22T00:52:00.004+08:00

post about Feb 21st:

Her place.
was kinda late. :x

she was kinda pissed off.

but hehe i know you cant be pissed off by me coz of my cute smile i gave you every minute.

walked aimlessly for awhile until a confirmed destination.

was about to go to marina barrage.

but parents were there.

don't know why all of a sudden we both kept quiet.

happened otw to The Cathay.

(gosh i think i got a mood swing or sumtin..sheesh)

so head to The Cathay to catch PP2.

was pretty crowded there. so were the occupied seats.

so we had to sit at the front row.

but it was ok than compared to GV.

laughed after the 1st quarter of the show.

she laughed nonstop during the show.

(cute btw :P)

and theres this part where guy A was talking to guy B.

and guy A sat down on the chair and he literally sleep with his eyes open.
Can yall believe it!!? its soo funny!

which reminds me of my friend's act.
the same thing he did in the movie.

so we laughed our ass off throughout the movie.
it was really funny.

Arab street after movie.

Back alleys.

Sultan's cafe for dinner.

Mee Pattaya for me.Mee Kway Teow for Her.

Chatted alot. standard ah=didnt finished the food coz i kept talking.

so after awhile she felt too full.

head home after that.

while on the way, entangled with fingers and hugged poles..

walking backwards that leads to getting stuck at the center of the road.

took buZ home.

A/C felt like 0 deg.celsius

people say love is warmth for the heart.

and i say your fingers may not stand the cold, but i can.

then let me give you warmth to your soul.

"nothing can stop my true feelings for you"

LOVE

2009-02-19T18:35:00.002+08:00

post for Feb 19th 2009:

met DearestlovE approx. at 3pm near my place, at the playground.

i was pretty scared that she is angry at me or sumtin coz she sounded angry otf.

i prepared myself.blablablaa i think it took me half-an-hour to get ready..

so i brought all the stuffs needed to give her. actt i bought it before then something happened which i don't wana say it here.

she wore white and berms.

she was quite surprised of the stuffs i gave her.

bla bla bla~

after the convos, invited her upstairs.

bro and sis-inlaw were at home.

hahaha the funny thing was that my bro was havin lunch and by the time we got upstairs, my bro went "Hi! do you want some balls?~"

and she was like "HUH?!"

i was like "ape seh abang..HAHA"

introduced her to bro and sis-inlaw.

Rose syrup for the both of us.

Burger Ramli for us too!

self-service preparation.

but i cant let her do it on her own, so i decided to make it for her.

"do you eat tomatoes? do you want lettuce? you're okay with it? chilli sauce for you?"

she goes "err yaa..ok sure..err i son't really like chilli sauce."

she giggled and smiled while i was preparing the meal.

i went "haha..whats so funny?! heeh"

she goes"on nothing~"

so they left.

and its just the two of us:)

went crazy.

oh i remembered this line from YOU "ehh simple plan!"

but then its the click five song for the anime movie, LamB.

and i was like "ooooh simple plan ah??? wow!"

and i got lovely pinches from YOU!!

waah syiok sia~
washed drinking GLASSES.. heehee!
i guess you know what im talking about dear :P

2009-02-19T02:02:00.003+08:00

i tried to give you all of me.
i gave you my heart.

but it seems that i dont know what you're feeling

i want us to be like every loving couple.

like the ones who would love to gaze at each other's eyes and tell them how much he/she loves you.

but all good stuffs must have the opposites.
but if you're wise to evade the opposites, i must say you're a well devoted lover.

And i don't know how you're feeling.
tell me and i know.

annyeong hi jumushipseyo

2009-02-18T22:26:00.001+08:00

i'm trying out for the POLO BOYS drama series audition this SATURDAY!..

wish me luck yall!

haha~!

2009-02-15T23:15:00.002+08:00

Just as i thought that perfection is the key to longevity.
But it also comes with patience and fatihfulness. also sincerity.
without them we are filled with sorrows and grieves.

Hey guys, just for your info, don't let it control you.
Take the chance to control it before it takes over your will.

Chagiya, Sarang hae yo
나는 당신이보고 싶습니다

2009-02-02T18:35:00.008+08:00

hello readers! this post is about 1/02/09 yeah..

here goes~

i felt so restless at home. there is a need for me to go out. i don't know why im feeling this way. its as if you havent went out for weeks. so i told DearestlovE about my situation. Right after afew msgs, managed to went out with her to esplanade. just a study outing.

So got out from my house at 330+. she msged me after awhile. wow i guessed im the one takin up alot of time to get ready. wore black shirt, a pair of jeans and a pair of rhumell shoes.

head to tampines mrt. met her there. i saw her tryin to strain her eyes to see me. initially she thought that i was cute or sumtin. haha nolah its coz she didnt wear her spex. but usually she doesnt wear her spex except at night. and she got mistaken me of her friend. she thought i was her friend. she smiled to me and was kinda surprised to see me wearing her wristband which she's been finding for days and also wondering..haha poor thing la she. So she was wearing this really pretty outfit.and its in red. i was shocked but i kept it inside. she just looked so gorgeous.

so we had late lunch at marina square allocated at the top floor. i had fried rice fish chop. bought for her fn grape n none for myself as i have my own water bottle. so i chatted while eating and she got kinda pissed off at me coz i eat sooo damn slow. but im with someone whom i wanted to be with. so its like i tend to TALK allot regardless wherever and whatever i am doing.

so after lunch we head to esplanade library. otw to the library, saw her friend. and her friend goes "ehh kau!" she waved her hand.aft tat i sumhow made fun of her fren's interpretation..so found a spot that has tables. studies were focused at the moment. she didnt understand certain stuffs in her studies. so i tried my best and managed to explain to her. took afew photos. and especially CANDID ones. but deleted it already.

then sent her home. while walking home, her mom called and said to wait at the carpark. i just followed. then apparently her whole fams was ther. came back from grocery shopping. i gave a hand or two to help out carry the heavy loads. i bet her mom was touched...i guess.

so thats it for the day. I went home as per normal:)

this photo was taken at the library. i was wearing her pink spex. well doesnt looked pink though

2009-02-01T07:06:00.008+08:00

woke up at 5:48.

[realised that this world is not a dream.]

[being trapped in darkness is all i can think of.]

checked my phone and i got two msgs from DearestlovE.

initially i wanted to chat with her over the phone ytd night, but yeah i missed a day.

i miss her so much. it's been quite awhile since we went out.. actually i asked her out for a movie yesterday, but she felt lazy. hmm im starting to wonder why she felt lazy all these times..tulah selalu tidur lambat. tak makan on TIME!! :P

so got up from bed and took a bath.

prayed and had breakfast, a bowl of oats and cup of mocha :)

and now sittin infront of the computer.. (sounds familiar ah dear?)

checkin out friendster, mails and stuffs.

shait man. my mailbox has been bombarded with tons of junks.

Deleted the junkies and head to ps3..

i will update later at the end of the day

2009-01-23T00:57:00.006+08:00

YOU changed my whole life..

today went to changi village with dearestlove.

suppoed to have lunch but dragged the time till 5++(sheesh yeah i know its a bad move for me) *cuts throat* so she wore this nice green polo.matched nice and casual with her pair of purple high-cut converse shoes..haha not to mention the shoes. i got the exact pair of shoes she got. except that mine is red interior with black&white exterior.. anyway i wore the t-shirt i bought from jakarta, the 3-quarts from freshbox, a pair of stripey shoes from jb, and a red cap from penang.

so we took 59 to changi village. chat abt stuffs. she had a hard tym playing djmax..hehe blabla cut it short. reach there, bought their delicious n popular nasi lemak, nuggets. she bought rojak bandung..

sekali on the way out, saw HAZIM and gang..haha! what a coincidence, my pri.sch classmate, adrian ross, was there too.. haha he's lookin like a bouncer than last time now...and that is a compliment arite.

soo we left the gang and searched for a spot/table to settle in. the most peaceful part was the strong wind..it really made my mind relax..after all, we're at the beach rite? haha..

chatted after feast. she showed me her yearbook..haha found SOMETHING unexpected.. a rocker was born! hehe... if she read this post, i bet she knows what im talking about :P hehe sorry dear.

so went home when dusk arrives. saw a cruise passin by the sea..and we're like waaaah.best ah to be in a cruise. took the same bus home.

walked her home. crossed the traffic light instead of the bridge..and she wiped my neck with some glitter which i wasnt expecting...THANKS lor!

and the night ended with a flying kiss from her.
such a sweeet and perfect girl for me:)

2009-01-22T12:13:00.004+08:00

you change my whole life!

i'm feelin all Superhuman you protected me

it all started with this, supposed to go sentosa with her on wednesday..

but sadly her stomach's upset pretty bad.

so days after..we went out..i remembered it was a thursday. initially waited for her at tamp mrt.

but my guts is tellin me to go over her place.. so i did. but met her while crossing the road.

so we head to sentosa. pics here:)

sweeetaz:

the day ended with the gloomy, cloudy sunset

<3

2009-01-09T01:40:00.002+08:00

went to sentosa, watched songs of the sea and went to vivocity with dearestlove.
had tons of fun with her.
"berpasir" all the time.
went home with her.
hug n kissed her.
i miss her so much already

2008-12-24T10:55:00.001+08:00

Today is a Wednesday, and it is supposed to be a hot, sunny sweaty day...

i hope there wont be weather malfunction.

Please bring back the SUN!

2008-12-24T10:10:00.007+08:00

on the 13th of Dec 2008

DearestlovE took this..and like yeah it was quite intentional... at that time we're at the flyer

She said, "eh u look like a girl leh when u do that.."

I went, "huh?! noway..u gotta be kiddin me"

She said, "yaa really! u dont believe i take picture of u ah"

and it looked like this :x

the next one was a random emo shot

closeup

And the day ends with our signature colour;

2008-12-16T00:21:00.002+08:00

your voice was soundtrack of my Summer

your eyes was the Brightest of all the colours

You always be my thunder

so bring on the rain

2008-12-13T12:25:00.004+08:00

sugar,
WE're GOING down
From the 10th, i was never happier then ever...

you are what ive been waiting for

you are what ive been wanting

for

you are what ive been needing for

Thank you DearestlovE

2008-12-10T23:58:00.003+08:00

woah! ku mencintamu sedalam2 hatiku.

terima kasih atas segalanya.
sudah sujud syukur, sudah doa syukur, sudah berterima kasih dan alhamdulillah.

**Now i'm crawling back to you**

2008-11-09T00:34:00.003+08:00

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apa pun

meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu

Ku mencintaimu sedalam2 hatiku

meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

Menatap indahnya senyuman di wajahmu

membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku

Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah

saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

2008-10-20T22:23:00.002+08:00

hello!! this is me! woooweeee!

i am sorry i dont know why i am crazy.

so err i shall return

to my normal state now; the

emo-emo-poetic-gentleman-psychological type... hee

2008-10-20T00:48:00.003+08:00

It is to express farewell.

It is to ensure space.

It is to develop the moment of truth.

It is Goodbye...

Incubation of the Burst of Fire in my heart.

2008-10-19T01:40:00.004+08:00

Sleep is the ULTIMATE RELAXATION.

"Sleep that knits up the ravelled sleeve of care.

The death of each day's life, sore labour's bath,

Balm of hurt minds, great nature's second course,

Chief nourisher in life's feast."

Macbeth, William Shakespeare.

2008-10-06T21:37:00.003+08:00

i miss someone.

someone who you guys don't know at all.

so don't bother to ask, please. im just gona ignore. sorry but yeah.

i've been trying really hard.

i hope that YOU are reading this.

the feeling of you not here with me gives me this piercing feeling through my heart.

gue rindu banget sama kamu.

gue masih cinta banget sama kamu.
______________________________________________________

pulanglah di hatiku yang sungguh sejuk ini.

gue rasa sejuk tanpamu di hatiku.

2008-09-21T08:27:00.002+08:00

ohh and err this is my hair when it's thicker

and this is after i had my DISASTROUS haircut a week b4 hols >:-\

any comments? well just to notify, err, i didnt cut my fringe.woops.

2008-09-21T00:02:00.004+08:00

21st September 2008
It is a Special day for my brother.
because it's his BIRTHDAY today and i wished him jus a few moments ago, ain't i sweet?

20th September 2008
Woke up early today to accompany Hazim to acting audition for Suria.Anybody heard of the malay drama"Cucuku Sayang"????? Anyone? because my sis, bro-inlaw, cousins don't and never heard of it.
And just so you know, My turn is next week. so all the best for me. and who knows you MIGHT see me in television*ahhem*

Later that day,
went out with cousins today to bugis.
buka puasa at TongSeng CoffeeHouse(the one opp. Mos Burger, outside bugis junction.....well actually you hav to cross the road)

had beehoon chicken mushroom noodle. two of my cousins had steamed chicken rice. and one of 'em ordered one MORE set of food, mee poh/pok chicken musshroom noodle. chrysanthemum tea for me, pepsi & lemon tea for Arfan&Afifah.
well basically me, Arfan, Afifah are really close cousins. and i mean REAL close. we can bug each other for couple of times, beat each other, scold each other, "bahasa-ing" each other and etc. However still, we are as a family *smiles*

so yeah that's about it for today.
~SayonarA~

2008-09-19T22:49:00.009+08:00

Well just now i checked through the online dictionary. and checked out some words. learnt a couple of stuffs. like:-
slovenly = untidy.
unkempt = not combed;hair, messy, unpolished.
dilapidated = reduced to, ramshackle, rickety, run-down.
All these words are used to describe maybe clothings.. cool huh?

anyway, had a great, fantastic, exciting, fascinating, enjoyable, happy outing.
with the bestfriends, eddie, junhao, karhoon, zhenyao, rachel, hazim, shilah, selina. GEREK DOK!~
also learnt afew chinese words like wo hen pao, or some sort..means, i am very full(opposite of hungry)

pictures here:)

Emo-me

laughters @ EastCoast Macs

Eastcoast parque:-

actually im adjusting my boxer.sometimes you never realise it just got higher than the usual height.wOOps

hmm maybe this guy got crayzeee all of a sudden :x

me & rachh-emo

zhenyao & me-JUMP!!

on the way to TM.

The Gentleman has come! *applause*

*ahhem*(here comes the BEST part!!!) sorry EDDIE. maybe i t just cant be helped. oops ;)

and that's the "SURPRISE" i got for you. haha!
no hard feelings, mate!

2008-09-19T01:40:00.005+08:00

okay i am very bored right now. so i decided to upload some old-skool-days of mine beofre i hit the sack...

hee sorry for the randomness :)

From this....
(early-2005)

To this....
(2005)

To this....
(2006)

To this....
(2007)

To the present:)
(2008)

comments please:) which one's better? which one i do look more *cough* matured...haha

being in a comatose

2008-08-06T11:44:00.000+08:00

Rebond my fringe and sides.
it was pretty impressive but alil funny.
err maybe i have not get used to it. soo we'll see.
I'm thinking of rebonding my back part of my hair. BUT not the whole part, just the bottom part.

life has been really aggravating as obstacles passes by us.
what are we gonna do about it?
Overcoming the presence of them is a difficult job to do.
but we have to have patience and perseverance.

Actually, i have no idea what to blog about.
maybe i'll think about it later.
this is my 1st time blogging and do we have to write it in perfect English? dammit